Personal #gender stuff

I'm a little #proud of myself in several ways…
Yesterday after dinner (veggie burger, the LIDL paddies are better than expected) I went out for a quick #hike before sunset. I call it quick hike because I can do a kilometer in under 10 minutes and do it over 10 kilometers (pride 1).

I only had the small backpack with water, jacket and headlamp. Open, long hair and no hair tie. I put on skintight #leggings, a tight shirt and my cross-runners. I hardly ever walk around like that in my village. The #gossip here is faster than the Internet. In my youth (80s, 90s) I was ashamed of not looking masculine: thin arms and legs, wide hips and small, feminine breasts. I've always had low testosterone. Today I want it and I have fears. (pride 2)

On the way out of the village, I greeted neighbors and acquaintances and chatted briefly with strangers (Pride 3).

I went up the hill through the forest to the big stones. It got #dark and I enjoyed the sunset. Then I hiked back down through the really dark forest. I live in the area where Little Red Riding Hood was invented. I didn't see the big bad wolf. Unfortunately, I didn't meet Little Red Riding Hood either. (a bit proud 4 - forest is safer than any civilization).

When I arrived down in the village, the soccer game was just over and a lot of men were still standing around having a beer. I had to pass, proudly (5) pushed out my chest, waved and passed. From a distance they certainly saw a woman. Nearby, they may have been disappointed that I'm not as feminine as I'd like to be. I then continued on my way home.
I love my silhouette in the shadow of the street lamps.

Als Antwort auf Freudian Mistake

Fedihelp userinterface
@Freudian_mistake I have only my status page where all toots and shares are shown and in the timelines I can divide between latest activity, latest posts, latest creation and personal (all toots are a mix from all persons). In personal I see all my toots and interactions. I would like to have a ‚status‘ without shares: Only my own toots - a me personal 😀
How I mentioned: In mastodon this is maybe the status page. In friendica it might be different. Maybe I‘m just to stupid for such a basic function. I‘ll try a ‚Drea‘ search after this toot. Maybe this is the way. Thx for helping 😀

Getting a #coffee this #morning with a #tired head:

Drea: *switch on*
Coffeemachine: Please run the lime program. It will take 10 minutes.
D: Not yet please *searches for the cancel button with almost closed eyes*
C: You have to run the filter cleaning program. It will take 5 minutes.
D: I want coffee! *presses cancel with force*
C: It's time to change the water filter.
D: Damn no! *cancel. Searches the black coffee menu, grinds coffee, press, adjust portafilter, finally start making coffee*
C: Finished. Here is your coffee. Please refill water.
D: I'M NOT YOUR #SLAVE!

But hey, I'm almost awake before the first sip.
Would you like a coffee too? The machine is on now. ☕️

Als Antwort auf Drea

Ich würde hier ein Sie weniger aus Respekt vor Alter, Position oder so verwenden. Eher im Sinne von Sie Ar***. Glaube, meine Einstellung zur Person ginge dann vom Rest des Tröts hervor. Hier ist jeder freiwilIig und erstmal sind alle gleich.
Beim Vogel fühlte es sich anders an mit den Weltstars, öffentlichen Personen, blauen Haken und so.
Ist im Reallife aber ähnlich bei mir. Geschäftlich biete ich gerne schnell ein Du an (außer Bank-Terminen oder Handel, wo ein Du zur Verkaufstaktik gehören könnte). Der Ton macht die Musik. Auch wenn Kinder oder Wildfremde direkt duzen. Es ist menschlich und nicht förmlich. (Vielleicht kann ich mit diesem Tröt die Norm etwas beeinflussen 😀)

My frontend: Gooood Morning World. Breath in and shout out. Let's start this party.

My backend/admin-panel: Bad night, few hours, thoughts about my inner life keeps me awake, tired.
Today I have to solve a tech problem generically and when not possible do the stuff manually, deadline possible? When not, no money. I hate update sessions and resulting incompatibilities, resolving deprecations and so on. I love making new stuff but not keeping eight years old code alive, which was not touched for at least five years. But what the customer wants she gets.

But first of all: Save me the few quite minutes till family awakes and get me some coffee...
Breath in, breath out. Hello everyone. Let us all try the best und just get a little bit closer to our goals than yesterday.

I work on a Mac Mini M1 with two identical 32 inch monitors. And I hate the monitor settings. The one on the left has four and the one on the right has five resolutions. 3840x2160px is too high for my eyes. The next smaller one would be great: 3008x1692px. However, this is not available for the other monitor. The next smallest is 2560x1440px: everything is so huge that it's a total waste of space at 32 inches.

I know it's a luxury problem. But it always gets on my nerves when I want to switch vice versa. I sit in front of it almost all day.

One monitor is attached directly to the M1, the other via an USB-C to HDMI adapter. Unfortunately, there is no point in connecting both via an adapter.

So, let's start work...

#work #apple #m1 #monitor #resolution

Als Antwort auf Drea

The next problem is (fortunately only sometimes) that the monitors have a different timing than the computer.
When the computer wakes up, it takes a while for the monitors to wake up. The computer then thinks that one or both monitors are not on and changes its behavior: e.g. move all windows to one monitor and no longer operate the other monitor.
At that moment, the other monitor turns on and the Mac switches back and wants to control both again. In the meantime, however, he thinks: "Oh, no signal, I'll switch back to sleep mode". And everything starts over.
Sometimes turning it on and off takes minutes and goes a dozen times, if I'm not doing anything. The only help here is precise manual timing when I turn on the monitors and then wake up the Mac. Or start from the very beginning: turn all off, pull the plugs and start with one monitor.

#Apple #m1 #monitor

This #summer #vacation on island #Fehmarn I went with our #camping neighbours by #ferry and bike to #Denmark one day. The ferry only costs 21€ incl. return. We visited the big construction site where they are building the tunnel. After this we drove a few kilometers along the coast. Very relaxed driving. At one point I saw this #accommodation. The plan for next year is set: a week in Denmark by #bike. You only have to look at the #huts to see if they are free and then book/let them know on the spot you stay a night.

One funny thing on the trip was: My passengers secretly tried to find something. But I noticed it right away: they are also #geocachers. What a coincidence. I didn't think about #caching in Denmark. Now I have found my northernmost #cache.

This night was again one of the nights. My partner and my child are sleeping - but my thoughts keep me #awake till the morning. The Vediverse is new to me and #privacy started me thinking, thinking of the time I grow up. In a conservative village in the middle of nowhere. I moved there when I was 13 with my mum, older sister and my new step-father.
At this time I already guessed something is different to me. Also my anatomy keeps me thinking of it. I am something between. I got in contact with the others and grew up. But #gender, #sexuality, etc was something you talked not in an open way. All about gender, gay and so on were swear words. I am/was introverted and fitted to the environment. I grew my hair, wear narrow Jeans, dressed up like a women on carnival but when I would have said what I really feel like, the hell would be opened for me.
I was so afraid and I still am. What I feel I cannot really talk to my family. My own family is great and I will not destroy it. I love them. There are some places I can live it in my thoughts. When we have sex we change roles. But I do not talk to my partner to the last bit. At home, sports and vacation I can wear leggings, but no stuff like tops, skirts, etc. I have a fully shaved body and long hair. Also in video games I can live my feminin side. In real life I have to be alone when I #crossdress. I often go by bike or get hiking. I wish I can make a journey alone to get some days out of my role.
This is now a quite deeper #Introduction of me than I first wanted to write. It took me some courage. But thats also the point why I am here. I have many interests. Being enby or trans is part of my life. Hopefully I can live this part here and get into the community.
PS: The profile picture is me, but edited so no one can make a relation.

#neuhier
Ahoi liebes Fediverse. Kurze Vorstellung, wobei ich garnicht weiß, was ich schreiben soll.
Nundenn, wahrscheinlich bin ich unnormal normal. Ich bin da seit den 70er, wurde in den 80er mit Punk, #Metal, Dorfleben etc. sozialisiert, arbeite seit 20 Jahren als #Webdev. Ende der 90er startete bei mir das Internet - mit ISDN, ICQ und kleineren LAN-Parties. Später setzte ich mal einen UnrealIRCd auf - waren das noch aufregende Zeiten 😀 Damals bewunderte ich die Leute, die quasi in Echtzeit mit Computern reden können. Ich fürchte, mittlerweile gehöre ich auch dazu.

Im echten Leben bin ich gerne draußen: #Fahrrad fahren + #wandern, #Mehrtagestouren, Schrebergarten, #Wohnwagen, #bonfire, #outdoor #cooking und so Kram. Gerne auch Konzerte und Festivals - seit Corona leider nicht mehr.

Von Facebook und WhatsApp bin ich schon lange weg. Nun dann auch von Instagram und Twitter. Hin wieder zu mehr #privacy, #opensource, #equality. Das sind dann auch die Sachen, die ich hier versuche zu finden.

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